New Day.

     Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

(Ephesians 4:29-32).

I was a nasty person yesterday.  I was short tempered and said some hateful things.  I was impatient and not compassionate.  I was selfish.

I had a bad day

Audra is still sick.  Shes whiny and has a serious attitude problem while being sick.

Elijah is starting to look every which way while nursing...and then gets frusterated for some reason and will latch/unlatch a million times during a feeding.  Ouch.  

I got some news that I wasn't expecting.  News that changed my plans for the weekend.  Plans that I very much looked forward to.

I had to drudge out into the rain with both kids to the grocery store.  Audra crying and whining the whole time.  We were out of milk and that is of course, what Audra wanted to drink.

I wanted to take a shower, but Audra had no interest in going upstairs. 

It was a bad day

I would like to say that I took the high road and dealt with all of these things with grace, but I did not.  I yelled at Audra.  I put a shopping cart behind the car that was next to me because I was aggravated that he parked so close.  And I said some really nasty things about someone...even going as far as proclaiming that I hated them.  I took my frustrations out on Nick at the end of the night.  My behavior was less than honarable.

In hindsight, it wasn't really a bad day.  It was me who made me have a bad day.  Because Im selfish.  I wanted to take a shower.  I wanted to fulfill my weekend plans.  I wanted Audra to feel better and go back to her normal self.  I wanted Elijah to stop being so fidgety.  I wanted to stay at home and not go to the grocery store.  It all seems so insignificant when you think about the people down in the south who have lost their children, their grocery stores, their homes.  I bet they aren't complaining about not being able to take a shower.  I bet they would love to listen to the sounds of their child coughing and whining and crying.

So today, I will be THANKFUL.  I will be thankful for my children, the ability to feed my children, our warm house, our vehicles...I will be thankful for an amazing husband who loves our children and wants to spend time with them, who loves me even though Im less than perfect.  I will be thankful for friends who save my weekend plans =)